Free?

Slaves to ourselves. That's what we are slaves to the standards set by us and for us. For instance right now I'm trying to figure out my life, and by life I mean senior schedule and college plans ( it's funny how true/untrue that is ) and I came to the realization that I don't have to take Calc(HELL)ulus if I don't want to. Or actually anymore soul sucking math EVER... In my whole life.... And it makes me itchily happy.

My life doesn't have to revolve around what classes I take, or the job I get, I can do whatever I want. It's funny because we feel indebted to our society, as if since we were born alongside all these other people, we owe it to them to take Calculus, or to be successful, or be great. Yes it would be awesome if in someway you helped those around you, but if you lose yourself in the process did you REALLY help anyone?

It's like we woke up in this strange place and were pushed into these itchy clothes and backpacks and classes. I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR THIS. I don't recall deciding that this is what I wanted for my life, but here I am sitting in an A.P. European History class corrupting my brain with monotony. I should be out becoming a person not becoming a number.

Right now at this time in my life all I want to be is a bird or maybe a cloud, I want to sit on the floor or the roof of my car and just exist. I want to introvert and discover what and who I am and I want to grow and become better. I'm a child with a name trying to act like an adult with an entire personality and put together life when really I don't know who I am or who I want to be.

I saw this poster that said "Repeat after me: I am free"

I am free to buy name brand clothes, I am free to act like everyone else, I am free to drive myself to my own prison cell to work for 7 hours, I am free to then drive myself home and continue to work on said prison work for the next 4 hours, I am free to get a job, I am free to get a nice house with a grand piano I can't even play. Freedom????? Yes.

If when you do something you feel yourself die a little, my advice would be to Stop. Find what makes you happy and what makes you a better person, learn something new at school or at work and call that a success. You are more than a number you are incredible and you have a voice that no one else has. Don't ever lose yourself in the crowd always be you because no one else can.

I think I kind of like you (girlish giggle)

- Juan Keem

Here's a picture of a cat, shaved to look like a lion.