My today

Tonight I don't know what to say. Things always seem so unremarkable when life is good, when things are easy. Today I am comfortable in silence, or when I am sitting with others. I'm happy being alone or in a crowd. I have seen old friends and made new ones, remembered good things and forgotten the bad. I feel happy, and I feel at home. I wish when I were low there was a way to remind myself what this peace feels like. What it feels like to be strong, and to be sure. But life doesn't seem to work like that, you have to ride the waves as they come, roll with punches. I imagine a life with only the best parts, and if given the option, I don't think I would take it. Life feels better with contrast, the highs a little sweeter. Happiness and love or peace can be fleeting, I will hold on to them when I have them, and I will wait for them when I do not. 

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