You are

I have been distracted, my head filled up with the thoughts of others. A steady stream of wondering how others see me. In the spaces between being noticed, I have filled up my head with music or imaginary interactions, scared maybe to be completely alone. I have wasted time and energy and hours of my day running away from being by myself, from being alone. I have left entire horizons of myself unexplored, emaciated and underdeveloped. Sometimes I feel small, unsure and looking for direction. I catch myself looking for someone to show me where to go, who to be. But I've learned that's not how it works. Discovery takes loneliness, and time, and even disappointment. I have never learned anything important from something that came easily. Life can be hard, and upsetting, or even sad. But every challenge, or obstacle, or mistake is an opportunity to be find out who you are.